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Name: Grace
Country: United States
State: New York
Gender: Female
Interests: Ah, well... reading a good fantasy novel, playing volleyball, being outdoors in God's beautiful creation, cooking, laughing with my friends, talking about anything pertaining to C.S. Lewis or J.R.R Tolkien... umm... yup! That's good for now!
Expertise: As of today... an expert in the etiquette of fine dining. Other than that, nothing, exept perhaps making a fool out of myself :0)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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AIM:  Bubsie125
Member Since:
9/19/2005
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| So, I've discovered that dancing (yes, I shamelessly admit it  ... we dance in our townhouse!!!) is a great way to release pent up energy and give yourself a study break from writing history research papers on John Eliot and Indian praying town culture! And recently, I've found trying to learn dance moves from teeny bopper movies like Newsies or High School Musical is especially great fun... He, he.  You may wonder... I was really, well, I don't know how I was feeling last night... caged? bored? uninvigorated? emotionally chaotic? who knows... I had to find something to do to keep me from losing it completely... and dancing (and then going for a run in the crisp, cold night air) helped a lot. So um, yeah this is a really random post, but, hmm... yeah. | | |
| I was watching one of my favorite "Alias" episodes (I know, I'm an addict... and I'm not ashamed) the other night and one of the characters had a line that really made me think. She said to Vaughn:
"Forgiveness is a tricky thing. Even God can't forgive you unless you let him."
Forgiveness is a terribly tricky thing, if you think about it. You can ask for forgiveness from someone or from God and yet if you haven't really forgiven yourself for you sin, their forgiveness will do you no good. I think that I am quite simply awful when it comes to downing myself. I do something I regret then, though I know that I can / and or have be forgiven, I still brood and beat myself over the head. In Blue Like Jazz the author has a chapter on Love... on loving yourself. When I read the chapter title I immediately thought, "Well, that's egotistical!" and yet, as I read, I was struck with what he had to say. Basically, if you can not learn to love your self and see yourself as the beautiful, godly creation you were made to be, there is no way that you can truly GIVE love. It makes sense... if you can't truly recieve love then there is no way for love to flow out from you. I think God has been calling me to genuinely accept his love and his forgiveness so that I may truly be and feel beautiful inside and out. Forgiveness is tricky because it depends on the hearts and minds of both parties... and yet it is also so simple, so profoundly amazing, so powerful. I can think of no greater gift that the ability to be forgiven. | | |
| What would the world be like if we all didn't care about ourselves, and totally focused on the needs and desires of others?
What does it mean to truly be a soldier for God? What actions and attitudes accompany this identity to which I am called yet struggle to conform to?
Why does God allow some of his precious children to be born with severely debilitating handicaps? And does God speak to them in some special way? Though they can't speak to us and tell us, how is God working in their hearts?
Why does is have to rain so much?
Just a few of my questions today.... | | |
| So I back for Mayterm. But seriously, it doesn't feel like May! We seriously need some warmer weather up here... that's why we come for Mayterm right? The weather!!!
Ha. well, I am really enjoying my Swahili class. Dr. Arenson is amazing and the class is small and fun and I am soooo loving learning a new language. I just hope that I can keep it up until next Spring when I will actually have to use it!
In other veins... I spent 3 hours cleaning bathrooms yesterday... very reminicent of Fall semester... it's amazing how learned skills come back so quickly. And I emphaize that the art of cleaning bathrooms IS an art. IOtherwise, it's kinda weird to be in a single room for Mayterm too. I so used to have 2 or 3 people always around. I like the quiet. It's good for working, but it's just weird! I feel kinda lost in such a big room by myself! He, he!
Hm, well... I should get some studying done. Kwa heri! | | |
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Woven and Spun
By Nichole Nordeman
"We'll sing to you, with gratitude, for lessons learned in how to trust in you!"
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Well... so I haven't posted in FOREVER! And I mean EVER! But this past couple of days have been so great and so beautiful that I just have to write.
My Spring break was just perfect... home for the first time this semester and it was great! I blew and painted eggs with my mom, watched my adorable 2 year old cousin hunt for easter eggs, attended wonderful Maundy Thursday (which this year was a complete Jewish Seder supper... the symbolism in that meal is incredible and I don't understand how the Jews can miss all the references that point straight to Jesus and the resurrection!), Good Friday Tennebre, Easter sunrise, and Easter celebration services, which were all so good and so powerful. And the weather at home was so beautiful... with flowers blooming and blossoms coming out... it was heaven.
Hmm... and on that note of resurrection... I digress and turn to "Alias" once more... HE'S ALIVE... I knew it, I knew it... they couldn't really kill Vaughn off the show. It just would not be right in any way, shape, or form! So it truly was a resurrection week, first Jesus, and now Vaughn! The world is a much better place! (OK, so that's maybe a little sacreligious, or very sacreligious, but...) He, he! Well, enjoy the beautiful spring weather... I hope it lasts... and now I must get ready to go to bed. Early. Yeah! | | |
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